The God Who Is There

My book for July was "The God Who Is There" by Francis A Schaeffer. I chose to read this because I had read another book by him titled "How Should We Then Live" in January 2007 as part of a class for school & it was really good. This book was similar to the writing style of his other book- DIFFICULT TO UNDERSTAND! At times it was boring because as always Schaeffer writes so one must think a lot about what he is saying. He uses a lot of big words, or words in a context other than what we are accustomed to. He covers topics such as philosophy, music, art, theology, and explains how after a point we are under a line of despair looking for meaning. He tells us how this happened then leads to what it means for the Christian, and how to utilise this in evangelism. His point was that the first part of evangelism is not about Christ, but about "God is There."
The book overall can be good, and probably should be read by Christians, but the context of the book is very deep. I suggest reading this book with a dictionary and taking your time reading it. It would also help to read this book with a group and discuss it to get more out of it. The book will be hard to understand in quite a few parts if you have nothing above a high school education, and due to its level of difficulty is why I have to give this book two stars.

RAYE

Everybody Cries, and Everybody Hurts

I got a new bank account at Bank of The West

This month has been rough in so many ways, and I have wanted to give up so many times. Doubting I am cared for and doubting everything. It is hard when you pray for a miracle everyday & never see one. Being upset everyday for over a year and not seeing a way out! I try so hard & nothing. I used to be insanely happy with friends and life was a lot better, but I let people walk all over me... And one day one person took it too far and the nail was in the coffin. Ever since people have been driving it further in. Its time to take it out and use every bit of faith for it to improve. Heal, cry, rejoyce. Be myself.
Darren at work may look at my computer to see why it says my proxy server is screwed up, and I still hope for a new job fast. Can't lose faith! I sold my first litter of guinea pigs today and have six left. Three weeks til the next litter goes and then I have a month before the next litter is born.
Well I can't really write more because I need to finish my July book! Hope it gets better! Peace Out!

RAYE

Calcium is Evil

I pretty much fainted at work today on my long day, so I was not able to work. I just avoided a hospital stay. After a bunch of tests, my blood tests determined my body is producing its own calcium which wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't producing so much... but it is... it is evil! It is producing so much calcium it is causing my body to shut itself off. So I will need to see a doctor in a couple weeks to find out why its happening & how to stop it. It won't be a cheap or easy fix but what else can I do? On the bright side I will likely avoid cancer and osteoporosis. In the meantime I need low calcium diet and will hopefully be okay with genaric pain pills... This month is just so FANTISTIC I know right... *eye roll*

RAYE

JULY SUCKS MONKEY BALLS!!!

All nine guinea pigs in their cage!

I can't stand July so far... This has been the worst month of the year! My hours at work were cut from 35 to 30 to 26 and I'm about to die! Pray that new job is here FAST! I applied to AT THE BEACH! for full time work and hope I get SOMETHING! I'm not the tannest in the world but am trying with the money I can to tan so I hope I get an interview and a job! That would help a LOT! In fact, a new job period would be a miracle...
I am also having problems with my bank (Bank of America) again and will close those accounts soon after the issues of cutting my credit line... Blocking me from $567 and then literally altering my account info costing me $56... I HAVE HAD ENOUGH! Just not worth it, so I should be going to Bank of The West soon!
My guinea pigs are also a problem. The only pet shop that will take them is the shop I got them from and they won't take Ginger so I need to find some place to neuter him, only I have no idea how to pay for it! It never ends!
Oh, and for some reason Verizon Wireless customer service is awful... What else? I still have a busted computer... So let's pray I get a new job ASAP! Then that the rest will work out! I am over desperate now... I need a miracle... Like NOW! I just do... That's all I can say.

RAYE

Updates and All That Stuff

One of Moe's new babies

I really need a new computer! I am sorry all my blogs have delayed postings to anyone who notices... The MAC computer will hopefully be mine November to January sometime... I hope sooner though!
Moe had her babies and I now have nine guinea pigs, and both Splodge and Moe are pregnant again since I confirmed Ginger IS a male! I still do not know if I can keep Ginger & I need to find homes for the babies. I may keep at least two! I am also looking for a teacup chihuahua. Those can be be expensive, but I hope eventually someday right?! If I want to take a holiday I should also quite often be able to take it with me! I can't wait for a new job, my MAC, and to move to Colorado... It will happen eventually, I just need to learn patience, keep working out, and work more on my wishlist/ bucket list... Progress is coming!

RAYE

July so far = NOT my cup of tea!!

Let's just say it- So far my summer SUCKS! My computer is honestly a real piece of crap as I have handwritten blogs dated back to Sex God, unposted due to dead internet (now that you can see all these blogs I can finally post them all online- 23 December- but the dates on the blogs are all being posted as the orriginal dates I have written them). I can't wait to get a new job and buy my MAC! My hours are being cut due to Chad's "buddy" Ben (who I can't stand) and there is a long story with lots of drama I won't get into on here. I posted my resume to Chad's computer however, so I could apply for jobs there and I sent it to over 20+ places. I already got at least one rejection, but man am I praying for a better job fast! Pray with me! I am miserable at mine! June was so busy with everything that I am needing to get back at my Patriarchs study! I am reading "The God Who is There" by Francis A Schaeffer for July! I read "How Should We Then Live" by him in January 2007 as part of a Humanities class and it mentioned this book a lot, so I finally decided to read it! I have not been to a church in a while that I have really wanted to be a part of, so I am looking to re-trace my roots and go to an ELCA  Lutheran Church where I decided to be a Christian, and combine that with Messianic Jewish I love! I am re-learning more Hebrew (I used to know more than this). I hope to go to Remenant Israel (the Messianic Synogouge where I used to go to) Friday night, and try a Lutheran church Sunday if I wake up! I also want to re-start a prayer journal like I did in High School.
I have many errands I need to do, like get my oil changed ASAP (its been what 7 months now?!?) and figure out what to do with my continual guinea pig litters and find homes for the babies! Its WAY too many to keep! I'm also behind in writing friends letters! Wow!
Forth of July was boring! Chad & I went to Oklahoma at night but it was raining so we didn't get to set off fireworks on our way home... And we got home at 3AM so he didn't see the NEMO film like he said he would, but he saw it last night so I could stop whining & nagging... YAY! Haha! I knew it would only be a matter of time...
Well I have more errands to run. I will keep ya posted... PS, The picture on the blog is of a pretty sunset from last night :)

RAYE