Showing posts with label church. Show all posts
Showing posts with label church. Show all posts

Friday, May 27, 2011

The Last Few Months

Chad's Mum dyed my hair dark & I LOVEEE IT! :)
I would like to give a major apology to everyone for having not updated my blog since January!! Seeing as it is near the end of May this is quite crazy for even me!! And of all nights I am choosing to update, it is after working two double shifts the last two days in a row and getting our asses kicked ALL DAY! Hahaha... to make this easy I am going to break this blog down into sections to describe lots of different things and hopefully it will also make my blog much easier to read! And with any luck I will figure out how to manage keeping it slightly more up to date than I have (maybe one or two posts a month at least) from now on... So where shall we begin??
COMPUTER AND TECHNOLOGY- Shortly after my last blog, my PC kicked the bucket... AGAIN! So I was out without a computer AGAIN! In April I bought my MAC after quite a few months of being without a computer so I would have a reliable one for school and so far the computer has worked brilliant! I paid for most of it outright but put about $750 on a payment plan (which I have already paid off about $80). The computer in total cost about $1,600! I have not gotten much chance to begin to use it to record my music yet though with all the working I have been doing! When my father came to visit me in the beginning of May he fixed my PC so that is working again now too... of course working for how long is questionable but yeah... I guess it technically works for now...
MY JOB- I am still working at the same place... WOO HOO!! haha just kidding, but really since Ben is managing the store now, most weeks I get hours out the ASS!! Loads of overtime... in the first few months of the year I had already made half of what I did all last year... this is GOOD NEWS!! :) My finances are not GREAT but overall I've been doing much better... making all my bills... having a little left over to spend, AND money left to save! :) But I am still paying off my computer and my credit card...
SCHOOL, COLORADO, AND THE LIKE- Well Chad had the idea that I go to school in Colorado anyway so I was going to try to... I found out I could go to University of Northern Colorado for pretty much for free (there was an issue with AIMS college getting enough in loans that I was going to)... I had the money saved up for the move etc but then the apartment I was going to rent fell through and I had trouble finding another place, so ultimately I postponed the move until December and I will be attending Butler College here instead until then... I was going to start in summer term but there was an issue with my financial aid going through in time, so instead I will just begin in August. I will be getting a degree in secondary education science (and will likely take up a specific focus in physics when in Colorado). I have given a MAJOR summary of these events as if i went into detail it would take up a LOT of time to write it all).
MY FATHERS VISIT- Well I have health coverage now... and a real mattress on my bed! That was my birthday gift from them... Aside from him fixing my computer we spent time shopping, and went to Chuckie Cheese to play games :)
CHURCH- As many have known over the last year I have had many issues with the church and have been restless with them ever since... I for a while considered becoming Catholic but have ultimately decided not to as there were many key things I was not okay with. I have recently stumbled upon the Unitarian church and have loved what I have seen so far... I feel thus far it has really helped me make my peace with God. I bought a book on the Unitarian church to read to find out more and ultimately will help me make that decision for certain!
WHAT IS TO COME- My birthday is coming up soon so I just bought myself a lot of stuff on my amazon wish-list that all went on sale! :) Exciting... Other than that I have mostly been working on long term plans... I have been trying to figure out how to save up for a down payment on a house and where I want to live... Chad has expressed interest in moving out of the USA for more freedoms etc since poker is no longer allowed online and the country is just falling apart more & more... I could make a good life back in England when I'm done so that is also a possibility... You never know... I really like the city of Leeds :) Who knows though... that's not needed to be decided for a while... Other than that just working on my life now... learning to get better at cleaning my apartment and maintaining all of that before I would ever get married, have kids, or even get another pet... But we'll see... There is a lot to come so I hope to keep you posted soon... Sorry it has been so long! Please keep reading...
RAYE

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Seeking Faith

I am not really religious... No matter how much I may want to be, my faith is very screwed up. Sometimes I have no idea what I believe, and after a hard year I have the desire in my heart, but very little knowledge of what is real and what is only a feeling. What directions are right to take and what is wrong. And where I can find peace and contentment in practise. I was looking at churches in Littleton Colorado online so I could get an idea of where I wanted to go before I moved there (I usually do this, and usually the church my gut tells me to go to is usually the right choice... actually it has always been the right choice). This time the church I was most drawn to and expirenced peace when looking at the page was Pax Christi Catholic Church. I am personally not Catholic, but my background has been close to this. At least 500 times in the last five years I have at one point or another considered converting to Roman Catholic, but I have always dismissed the idea. But I find myself considering it again. If I do convert I have a feeling a lot of my prodastant friends will be very angry, as some have already expressed in their critisism at my mere consideration of it! I have been to Catholic mass before though and have always found it meaningful and deep. Also quite complex. I do not understand all of the sacrements etc and would still find a lot to learn. From what I have learned however is that much of what people think of the Catholic church is not true, and that many of the issues Prodastants have with the Catholic church are either due to misunderstanding of purpose of an act, or it was a practise that has been done away with centuries ago. Even things like "Catholics do not believe in birth control" I have found are not 100% do not do this type of rules. The main purpose of that "rule" if you will was implimented in 1968 at a time of the hippy movement with casual sex running wild. It was implemented to discourage improper use of birth control. There are many who still recognise hormonal birth control as medical treatments, and condoms used responsibly (say a couple already has 2 kids and can not afford anymore, there is no problem using one because ultimatly God has final control over it, and sex is for pro-creating AND pleasure). Those involved in sexual acts just have to be open to the fact it involves all of this and is not mutually exclusive when using Birth Control (who knew that looking into the context of what the pope says would be just as important). And the Catholic church is changing in many ways within itself, yet remains strong after close to 2,000 years while all the prodastant denominations seam to split every-which-way. Not to mention it is the largest religious group on earth, and soley funds over 3 BILLION charities worldwide, not to mention over 200,000 hospitals in the United States alone!
Well anyways the process of becoming Catholic involves a lot of study, faith discovery, and seeking while growing in the Catholic community. This can take from 9 months to 18 months depending on the person, on averege. Either way, seeking out a faith I feel sure and strong of, and can practice and enjoy is what I would really like. I would really like to be able to proudly claim a faith and practice with all my heart finding meaning in it. Pax Christi offers the becoming Catholic faith discovery class for free and I hope to begin it when I get to Littleton. It feels like a good thing to do. The right thing at this time. At least seek it out. That has to be a goal for 2011... Seek faith and meaning, learn more, do more Bible studies, and put my whole heart into it! That is what I want :)

RAYE

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Sacrifices! Pretty Much My Life Story!

Group at the Cropwalk!
My life is basically a series of being patient and making multiple sacrifices. Its horrible! Not only can I not get my computer when I planned (will take longer to post these than planned but who reads my blog anyway???) But also I have to give up my holiday! Other things? I have lost a LOT of friends this year... Many I guess I really don't care about, but some I thought were really good friends decided I did not matter to them anymore because of stupid issues. Its upsetting but I guess it really shows you who matters, and it makes me glad to have fake people out of my life. I don't need them. When I get married someday, maybe a small wedding is best, and I will only invite people who really matter.
I am also looking for a new job. I think it will be better for me, Chad, and everyone if I had one. Casey at work got fired, but Zach the mamager has already hired someone new so we won't be getting many extra hours. Pray to GOD I find something fast.
That's another thing I want to change! I want to grow spiritually and regain some happiness. I want to put more of my life into others and do some good. Much of this got inspired from seeing the film Jesus Camp which used to only make me mad. Some parts of the film still do make me mad, but it made me want to do better, and only with the help of God. The Cropwalk for Hunger is this Sunday with  the church! (Will add photo to this blog after)... Its a start! Please pray for good things!

RAYE

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

July so far = NOT my cup of tea!!

Let's just say it- So far my summer SUCKS! My computer is honestly a real piece of crap as I have handwritten blogs dated back to Sex God, unposted due to dead internet (now that you can see all these blogs I can finally post them all online- 23 December- but the dates on the blogs are all being posted as the orriginal dates I have written them). I can't wait to get a new job and buy my MAC! My hours are being cut due to Chad's "buddy" Ben (who I can't stand) and there is a long story with lots of drama I won't get into on here. I posted my resume to Chad's computer however, so I could apply for jobs there and I sent it to over 20+ places. I already got at least one rejection, but man am I praying for a better job fast! Pray with me! I am miserable at mine! June was so busy with everything that I am needing to get back at my Patriarchs study! I am reading "The God Who is There" by Francis A Schaeffer for July! I read "How Should We Then Live" by him in January 2007 as part of a Humanities class and it mentioned this book a lot, so I finally decided to read it! I have not been to a church in a while that I have really wanted to be a part of, so I am looking to re-trace my roots and go to an ELCA  Lutheran Church where I decided to be a Christian, and combine that with Messianic Jewish I love! I am re-learning more Hebrew (I used to know more than this). I hope to go to Remenant Israel (the Messianic Synogouge where I used to go to) Friday night, and try a Lutheran church Sunday if I wake up! I also want to re-start a prayer journal like I did in High School.
I have many errands I need to do, like get my oil changed ASAP (its been what 7 months now?!?) and figure out what to do with my continual guinea pig litters and find homes for the babies! Its WAY too many to keep! I'm also behind in writing friends letters! Wow!
Forth of July was boring! Chad & I went to Oklahoma at night but it was raining so we didn't get to set off fireworks on our way home... And we got home at 3AM so he didn't see the NEMO film like he said he would, but he saw it last night so I could stop whining & nagging... YAY! Haha! I knew it would only be a matter of time...
Well I have more errands to run. I will keep ya posted... PS, The picture on the blog is of a pretty sunset from last night :)

RAYE

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Computer Virus, MeaslePox... Oh, Oklahoma!!


Okay It really feels like forever since I have been on here but I promise I will get better. I just spent the last 5+ hours fixing the computer with the help of my father and brother over the phone... I had a nasty virus that would not let me open the internet at ALL and we had to reverse the system and get it off... after that I had to remove the Malware & the first two scans were costly, but my bro knew of a free one we finally used & I had 257 threats the first time!! The removal did not fully work tho so I had to get another scan (taking another hour and a half) and remove the last 56 things of malware. Turns out a lot of stuff came from Zwinky (which is now gone) and the virus was Vista Guard 2010 (not a friend)... after all of that its finally gone... I still don't have a virus protection, but I think I'm okay for doing this... just cant download really anything new... But I will hopefully have it REALLY SOON :)


Aside from my computer having a virus, I also had a nasty virus just a week ago... So nasty that I got spots all over me. I went to the doctor & it was this new virus that had developed. It was not one of the known viruses like measles, mumps, rubella, or chicken pox, but it was kind of a cross between chicken pox and measles (the spots were more pox like but flat and only itched if wet)... it was as contagious as say Chicken Pox so I was not allowed to work or go to church last week. It was quite unpleasent. I had to take a pill like every 6 hours... Bahh... but the spots did go away quickly with that drug, and as much as Chad likes to say his immune system is "shit" he did manage to NOT catch the MeaslePox (what I call the sickness, it has no real name)... And Chad was DEFFINATLY exposed, he just got VERY lucky :)


Last Sunday as I was getting better Chad begged me to go to the casinos in Oklahoms so we drove an hour to Native Lights Casino (where the picture of Chad at the Slot machine was taken) and some other casino right next to it... I HATE the casino... they always smell AWFUL!! and its boring. And I drove, and due to my medicine I had to take from being sick I was not even able to have a few drinks so I was CRANKY!! I told Chad next time we go to the casino he is driving & he is buying me some damn alcohol (not to get drunk but just to take the edge off of my crankiness of being there)...


I went to the library and paid to have my newsletters printed after the address labels were recieved, so birthday cards thru March and Christmas cards were FINALLY sent... I have the April ones already ready to send off in a few weeks. Chad's B-Day is the 23rd, but I still gotta get him his gift (I'm sure with shipping time it won't be here in time, but thats his fault for waiting to tell me what he wanted til the last minute).


Other than all that just workin my ass off at the Taco place... Today was soooooo busy and I am sooooooo tired!! I had hoped the computer would have been fixed in 2 hours tops... oh well... at least its taken care of!! I ran into someone at Taco Shop today who had remembered me from when I worked at the other store... :) I still don't have an apartment or any of that so there is still a lot to do. I still have to sit down and finish (*cough* start *cough*) my March book Drops Like Stars by Rob Bell (okay I read like 17 pages so far I think...) And I hope VERY shortly to post the February Book blog (since my computer is actually better now)... And I have Tuesday off so maybe Tuesday, but no promises... I'm just so glad my health and my PC-Piece-O-Crappo's health is doing better... hahaha... (now I can download more music I wanted again, and pictures from my phone to hard-drive etc). Okay, well I hope to update later this week, so keep looking for updates...


RAYE

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Its been a While Since My Last Post...


Hello Everyone!! Sorry it has been a while since my last post on Velvet Elvis, but things have gotten even more crazy if you can believe it along with my internet and keyboard acting up worse than usual. Sorry for all the typing errors on the Velvet Elvis blog. Many of my keys are slowly dying on my keyboard. I hope to buy a MACBOOK PRO when I can afford to, but right now I really do not have that kind of money at all. I still have not gotten a job, but over the last week and a half or so that has not been much of a concern. The Chaos started on Monday (I think, or was it last Saturday... I think it was Saturday) of this (last) week. You know how some days are just SO BAD you can not help but laugh histarically?!? That was one of those days!! It started at 4am before I woke up with Chad's automobile dying at the pump at the petrol station. I tried to get it to start until 7am when he called his buddy Ben who he thought had to work at 8, but really didnt have to work til 10. either way he came out with his tools & him & Chad tried working on the auto to get it to start until 9am. They had no luck so Chad came back to the apartment to wake me up and have me call AAA to get some help. By about 11AM they car had been towed to the apartment car park & due to the snow they had trouble pushing it in a parking place. Due to a divine miracle the auto was jump started JUST long enough to back it 10 feet into the spot. The day proceeded with Chaos in Chad trying to get a full refund on a prepaid credit card that the people at "Advance America" but they kept charging him for it, so EVENTUALLY after like 4 hours or work on that he had his refund (and I got to drive him all over to fix the situation). At about 2PM our toilet broke!! I couldnt help but laugh all day at how awful the day was. That evening Ben visited & fixed the toilet, but Chad was out an automobile and he hates walking so thus I have been driving him for the past week.


I believe it was MONDAY things got bad for me. Walking into church on Sunday I fell on the ice (which is insane because I used to figure skate and never fell) but anyway because I have a joint disorder (HMS) I think it put a pretty bad strain on me, because Monday I had to go to Urgent Care Centre where I recieved like 8 XRays. There was a fear I broke or dislocated my elbow or shoulder, but luckily had only bad sprains through my left arm (If you look at my picture with this blog, you can see I am wearing my arm in a sling). So on top of running Chad's errands to pay his phone bill, take him to work etc, I have been running these errands with ONE ARM!!! I was unable to take my pain pills while driving so when I was not running errands I was often asleep from my crazy pain killers. Chad was pretty helpful when I asked him though, and I am weaning myself off the sling & doing better now. :)


As for news on a job I am somewhat getting tired of being told I am not qualified to work here & there etc. A man named Mark Jones at the Church I attend called me on Wednesday about being a waitress at Granite City and everything seamed pretty good until I concluded my interview and the man told me he did not think I capable of learning how to be a waitress or memorising the menu (never mind that I have been a perfect A student... because apparently that means nothing). Oh well! While at Starbucks talking to Lilly-Ann a lady came up to me who heard me talking about how I needed a job and all of the things I knew how to do etc & she said that I should apply in the salon management stuff that she works in. She said they were looking for people and I sounded like the right kind of person so I should bring my resume by on Tuesday. I still have to write a cover letter to go with it, but I really hope this works out because it is a really good job that I think I would do well at. We'll see... some things are just weird. (This all happened yesterday!!)


A lot more crazy things happened yesterday too. Chad fixed his automobile. He opened the hood of his auto and noticed his battery had blown up to itty bitty tiny pieces. He gathered the pieces and took them to Walmart and bought a new battery & he put it in. He did not think the battery was the issue because he had tried things with the battery before & it did not work, but he put in the new battery & it just sort of started!! :) Chad's mum also stopped by to give Chad a hair cut & delievered our Christmas gifts (since we had not been by to pick them up). The day finished at around 3 to 4am today when Chad came in second place on a poker tournament (he was one card off of taking first, but I guess thats just luck)... He won $171 on a $1 entry fee!! Out of 100 or so people he was second, so I guess thats pretty good.


I have also been getting great help from Lilly-Ann and people at church to help with money beyond my parents sending money. Lilly-Ann has been giving me things like potatoes & loo roll... Little things, but still needed and helpful. An anonomyous gift from a person at church for $200 will also be a big help especially for food when it runs out, and doing laundry & paying medical bills. It actually somewhat puts me in awe that people can be this nice... It makes me want to be able to repay others and do things like this in return.


It has deffinatly been crazy. I have still taken time to have a date night with Chad to just watch films from the apartment & just enjoy ourselves. It is a rough time but I am sure things can get better. One day things will be better. I hope to have a job soon and my money from the government will hopefully be in very shortly. I also need my PO Box to send off my Christmas Cards, & Birthday for January & February... I still have not finished the Beth Moore Study, but will post when I am done, and I need to start on JESUS WANTS TO SAVE CHRISTIANS (My book for February) so I can post on that at the end of the month too). I hope to read one book every month this year... Just wait and see the things to come... And hopefully my NEXT post will have even more exciting good news :)


Til Next Time,


RAYE

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

VELVET ELVIS


Here it is, the Blog I promised on Velvet Elvis by Rob Bell. I would just like to start with if you have not read this book yet, you really have to get a copy because it is fantastic!! I am just going to share some of my favourite points Bell made in his book along with some refrences, interesting points, my opinons... etc. If you do not agree, I do not care to hear you argue your opinon, try to change my opinon, argue your theology etc, cos quite frankly I have had enough Christians in my life try to tell me what to believe. It is quite annoying. I do not need someone who cares to try to shove their beliefs down my throat so keep that in mind if you feel you need to comment like that... I will probably ignore you... In fact this book was crucial in helping me recover from damage I have expirenced from the church in my life thus far... after lifing a couple years in the Bible Belt I can honnestly say I have been disgusted by much of the church. My good mate Brad has been reccommending this book to me since 2007 and I finally read it. All I can say is I should have read it sooner!! Its really good. Regardless of your religious beliefs you should pick it up & read it. Bell tells us what the church SHOULD be doing, and a lot of history etc to help us understand it. The book is really titled Velvet Elvis: Repainting The Christian Faith. If you are a Christian, or just a person who is not a Christian because you dont like the Christians you meet or what the church "is" this book is for you... I believe it really gives us a true glimpse on what it should be like... The kind of church I want to be a part of & the type of Christian I would want to be... Regardless of what you believe tho u should pick it up :) The book is an easy read & is broken up into seven movements just as I will break up my info on it so it is easy to read... Now that you know some of my background, these are a few of my thoughts...



Velvet Elvis


One of Rob Bells opening points sets the stage for the rest of his book: "Christian faith is alive only when it is listening, morphing, innovating, letting go of whatever has gotten in the way of Jesus and embracing whatever will help us be more and more the people God ants us to be" (pg 11).



Movement One- JUMP


Rob Bell makes an interesting point that whatever your religion is, no matter who you are, Everybody follos somebody. Even if we insist we are an individual, we got our ideas from somewhere... Thus we all follow SOMEBODY!! As Christians, we are to follow Jesus because we believe his way is "the depth of reality" (pg 21). By this I understand Rob Bell to mean by living the way of Jesus one gains a better understanding of the world, how it works, and the ay things are. Rob Bell explains faith to be like a trampoline you jump on. You invite others to join you to jump as well because you enjoy it. A trampoline is powered by springs (these are our beliefs or theology). Bell says we can take one spring out of the faith and examine & question it for what it is (example was Jesus really born of a virgin)... Rob Bell believes by faith being a trampoline we can examine each individual thing while we still jump and our faith does not fall apart. If faith was like a brick wall of fundamentals, take out one brick & evenything falls apart. Springs are flexible, and if we are really trying to understand the Bible we will always leave with more questions... Rob Bell argued that too many Christians these days are too busy trying to convince people they are wrong & always defend their beliefs. Bell argued "You rarely defend the things you love. You enjoy them and tell others about them and invite others to join them with you" (pg 27). He argued to be a Christian you don't need to know anything about the springs to persue the way (pg 34). Even if someone is not a Christian that does not mean they have the entire picture wrong either. The last big point Rob Bell made in his first movement was that Christianity should bring us joy. He argues how it is possible to believe all the right things and be miserable (pg 35). "Joy doesn't rule out suffering, difficulty, and struggle. In fact, taking Jesus seriously almost guarentees our lives will be difficult!!" (pg 35). How many Christians do you know would say that trying to convert or persuade someone?!?


Overall my favourite part of this movement was the discussion of the springs. I know oh so many people that if you take away one aspect of their faith they would have to reevaluate their entire beliefs on that one thing... Bell simply argues we need a Jesus big enough and flexible enough like a spring to handle our questions and that if one spring is removed, we would still be able to jump!!


Movement Two- YOKE

"What is interesting to me is that the phrase 'personal relationship' isn't found anywhere in the Bible" (pg 43). I found this quote to be one of the ones that stood out the most in the book. Before living in the Bible Belt, I honnestly had not heard the phrase personal relationship before while at church. In fact the more I heard people say you need to pray a specific prayer to ask Jesus into your heart, the more disgusted I became... Shouldn't me knowing I believe & saying I believe be enough?!? Why was this suddenly a "rule" to be a Christian. I always felt the Bible was best understood when I was in a group Bible study while in secondary school, and Rob Bell made the point that the Bible was not originally written for people to read on their own but in groups (pg 53). The Epistles were written to groups or people such as Corinthians, Thessalonians, Romans, etc. Another point Bell made was "the more people insist they are just taking the Bible for what it says, the more skeptical I get" (pg 44). Bell does affirm however God has spoken & the rest is just commentary. But how are we to say we are the ones taking the Bible for what it says? One can make the Bible say almost anything they want it to. "When you hear people say they are going to tell you what the Bible means, it is not true. They are telling you what they think it means" (pg 54). He gave a little insight to inturpreting scripture. The underlining point to inturpretation however was "action was always the goal (pg 57). Rob Bell went into some history then to help explain scripture inturpretation. Back in the day, Rabbis ways of teaching their disciples was how to be like them. Jesus was a Rabbi, so ultimatly his teachings were how to be like him. Rob Bell argued that the Word is alive because it HAPPENS. It is our story. Just like Moses & the Israelites crying out for deleverance from Eqypt thousands of years ago, we still today cry out for delieverance in our daily life from things. Rob Bell also stressed the importance of the context "to grab a few lines of Jesus and drop them down on someone 2,000 years later without first entering into the world in which they first appeared is lethal to the life and vitality and truth of the Bible" (pg 63). Rabbis & Jesus intrepreted scripture using the context and outside knowledge of the scriptures meaning to do something known as Binding & Loosing in which they would apply the context and see how to carry out the scripture in their lives. As disciples of Jesus we are given the power to bind and loosen for ourselves & get our own inturpretations. We are not to simply blindly listen to what someone tells us the Bible "means because they may or may not be correct. "When people say all we need is the Bible its simply not true" (pg 68). I agree with Rob Bell strongly in this statement. When we thing about it, we are not reading the original scriptures most often when we read the Bible since they were written in Hebrew, Greek & Aramaic, and many of us do not know these languages. First we need the tools to learn these languages or enough of them to decide what we thing the scriptures are presenting. Then we need more tools aside from the Bible to put ourselves into the right historical context since none of us are currently living in the Biblical times. After we believe we have an understanding of this, we need to see how we can apply this to our lives because action is ALWAYS the goal. And we can not trust someone else knos all of this context etc that they claim they do, we have to learn it for OURSELVES!!! Perhaps one of our biggest problems in the Church today is too few Christians reading the Bible and trying to understand it in this way... and far too many taking anothers word for it!!


Movement Three- TRUE

So what is this BIG DEAL about Christianity anyway? Bell Argued "it isn't just concerts and surfing and the high points, and it isn't just those beautiful moments in the midst of the everyday mudane; it is also in the tragic and the gut-wrenching moments when we can not escape the simple factthat there is way more going on around us than we realise" (pg 75). Have you ever felt like there was something bigger going on & you just couldn't tell what it was?!? That this world is so intercretly woven together in a specific ay that it seams hard to explain? Rob Bell states that "it is God's world and God made it and God owns it and God is present everywhere in it" (pg 77). God does not "show up to our Bible study, or our church event, our prayer meeting, or whatever it may be... God doesn't intervine... WE are the ones who show up, God is and was always there. Because of this Bell makes perhaps one of my favourite points in his book: ANYONE can speak truth... Christian, Jewish, Muslim, Buddhist, Athiest... ANYONE. "As a Christian, I am free to clain the good, the true, the holy, wherever and whenever I find it (pg 80). Rob Bell argues that Christianity is not the only truth out there. For example in Turkey the muslims do not build their houses all at once so they build parts at a time when they can afford to because they believe it is bad to have debt. Rob Bell argued that just because these people were not Christian did not mean they did not believe in something GOOD!! We need to claim something good when we hear it as our own no matter who said it, Christian or not a Christian. Rob Bell also argued that not all "Christian" things are good meaning Christian music, propaganda etc... An artist may praise Jesus in their songs but on the side live a life far from what is considered GOOD, while a non Christian singer may be just the opposite. One of my favourite lines in the book was Christian is a great noun and a poor adjective. It really is... Because all things in this world is God's and God is all places, it is impossible for a Christian to have a secular job! God intends to use us regardless of our profession if we seek to do good and do it for God. I hated going to a Christian school where it sometimes seamed that those wanting to be a pastor or minister of some kind or a missionary were seen as above those in a business related degree or something. We all have different purposes in life. We also all have different beliefs. it is important for us to think for ourselves and claim thruth wherever we see it. We need to believe in a Big Jesus to be able to accept everything we hear in church is not alays truth, and sometimes what we hear OUTSIDE of church IS truth! Rob Bell made the point that God is everywhere on this earth & its all his. He couldn't be more right. That is why it is disgusting when people who are involved in "missions" argue that they are going to bring Jesus someplace... How can you bring God someplace he already is? Rob Bell claimed that Tour Guide may be a better term then missionary because they SHOW you a God who is already there among you... and even if you were to CARRY God, he is a big God... thats a pretty heavy load to carry :) Rob Bell finished movement with 3 ponts I liked on page 92:

1) My friends are resonating with Jesus whether they realise it or not


2) If it is real, then it is showing us God


3) Wherever you jind those (Passion, Love, Exhilleration) you are finding God!



Movement Four- TASSLES

Rabbis all wore a specail garment which had tassels on them. Because Jesus as a Rabbi he would be wearing one of these. Does anyone recall the Bible story where a woman had been bleeding for many years reached out and touched Jesus' tassle and as healed and made new through her faith? This is not a story directly of Jesus saving her "soul" so to speak but she was looking for a physical healing. It is true Jesus saves souls, but that is not the point of it... "salvation is holistic in nature. For Jesus, being reconciled to God involves far more than just the saving of your physical body or your soul- it involves all of you" (pg 107). Rob Bell continues to say "The point of the cross isn't forgiveness. Forgiveness leads to something much bigger: restoration. God isn't just interested in the covering of our sins; God wants to make us into the people we were originally created to be" (pg 108). In a way I would like to put it however is not only does God want to make us into people who will presue "his will for our lives" as I heard so many times in the Bible belt, but perhaps he wants to make it so that regardless of what bad circumstances we have had with people, with the church, or with life in general that they do not control our actions or our thoughts in becoming the people who we are. What if we saw these points as ways we could better impact the world around us... not to be defined by this world (if you were raped, if you are rich or in poverty, etc) but what is we let God make us in who we were meant to be that we could feel we lived a life of deep purpose?!? With my thoughts on this track, it is easy to agree with Bell's point "approaches that deal solely with not sinning alays fail" (pg 108). Rob Bell also believes that "It is possible to be saved and not be a healthy, whole, life-giving person. It is possible for the cross to have done something for a person but not in them (pg 110). "It is possible to be a good Christian and go to church services and sing the right songs and jump through the right hoops and never let Jesus heal your soul" (pg 118). How many of us today have been hurt in our lives? ALL OF US!! None of us are exempt. The sad thing is many of us "forgive and forget" when the incident still subconciously impacts us years and years and years to come; regardless of our religious beliefs. We need to drag it all up in order to fully heal from it all and it takes time!! We need to be like Job who was relentless in his persuit of God. Rob Bell came to the conclusion that very few ever let Jesus truly heal their souls, and perhaps that could be a meaning to what Jesus meant when he said the way is narrow. What were the conclusions Rob Bell made to what we can do to move beyond this focus only on Jesus saving you from sin cycle etc. Rob Bell left Movement Four with 2 main conclusions on page 120:

1) The system has to be changed. It has to be destroyed and replaced not with another system but with an entirely new way of life.


2) Very few people actually live from their heart. Very few live connected with their soul.


Movement Five- DUST

Jesus himself is the very word of God. Jesus claimed to be the ay the truth and the life, but what does this mean historically? In biblical times, Jews believed the Torah as the way the truth and the life. The law was so central to the Jewish way of life that young boys by the age of ten would have the entire Torah memorised in Hebrew: Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, Deuteronomy!! I have read these books of the Bible and I can imagine memorising them to be no easy task. If an ten year old boy can do it, someday I want to memorise the entire Torah in Hebrew as well!! Of the boys that memorised the Torah, the more gifted of those went on to memorise the rest of the Tennach (known as the old testament) by the age of thirteen!! Of these boys the best of the best would try to become Rabbis because the Rabbi was the most respected of the men in town. Those who were no longer in the process of their studies had begun the family trade. The remaining best of the best would be questioned by the Rabbi to see if the Rabbi thought he could become like him. If the Rabbi was sure of this young teenagers abilities he would allow him to become his disciple, and if not he would return home to learn the family trade. If the young man were to become disciples of a Rabbi, the Rabbi would teach them his yoke. He thought he could be like him. The disciple would leave his friends and family and give up his life to follow the Rabbi. Disciples were to show a true level of devotion to their Rabbi. Jesus was a Rabbi & one can find it very interesting when they see his choosing of his disciples. Jesus chose fisherman for his disciples, what is this significant of? Jesus chooses the not good enoughs!! Because of this I can never doubt that Jesus does not think I can be like him... He chooses everyone and even those who are not good enough!! But to be a disciple we must commit ourselves. In the Biblical times a disciple would follow his Rabbi everywher because he would never want to miss a thing, even if it meant folloing him in the desart for days getting covered in dust. "If you are a disciple, you have committed your entire life to being like your Rabbi" (pg 133). I Christian has to remember this, and I think at times it gets difficult, but the thing that relieves pressure in wondering if we can be like Jesus is that Jesus chose us as the not good enoughs. He chooses everybody. Rob Bell makes his point that God believes people are capable of amazing things. I agree we all are capable of amazing things be we rich or poor or clever or thick... Our abilities do not make us who we are... Our choices do!!


Movement Six- NEW

Is there really no such thing as a bad church? I would argue that there is such a thing... I would argue that there are bad churches, bad Christians, and bad pastors!! Rob Bell argued that it is possible for religious leaders to get in the way of people entering the kingdom of God. I would have to agree. I once attended a church that the pastor alays voiced his opinon and said if you did not agree with his exact theology, you were a sinner and going to hell. In fact one Sunday when there was a snowstorm and many did not attend church, my mum went and when attendance was low the pastor commented about how those who did not come were sinners and were going to Hell. Sin is deffinatly an issue in the world, but as a Christian it should not the main focus or direction of the church... We have been made NEW and that is what Rob Bell discussed in movement six. When we are in Christ we are made new... we are not who we ere by any means anymore. Rob Bell tells us how our old self will still on occasion try to rear its ugly head in our lives, but we are not that person. We need to die to that nature everyday because when we are in Christ we are given a new nature and we have to believe it and claim it. "It is not that we are now perfect or that we will no longer struggle. Or that the old person won't come back from time to time. It's that this new ay of life involves constant, conscious decision to keep dying to the old so that we can live in the new" (pg 140). Rob Bell presented that If we are in Christ... God's view of me is Christ... And God views Christ as perfect. What does that mean for me? God views me as perfect! We escentially are HOLY!! Colossians 3:12 tells us we are Holy! "The issue is my learning who this person is who God keeps insisting that I already am" (pg 141). That is what we are looking to learn when we study the scriptures and attend Church as a Christian. That is why Rob Bell argues that shame has no place in the Christian expirence. "Beating others up about who they are and what they are not is going in the wrong direction" (pg 142). I personally can relate to this. I have had many expirences in the church where other Christians I may have met once or twice try to tell me how I should live or try to tell others how they sould live "I don't think its in God's will for you to do this" or "If you don't believe/do/think the same as me you are sinning and going to hell" or "I don't think God wants you listening to that secular song" or the most rediculous I have heard "If you dont pray before taking a dump on the toilet, you are sinning. You have to see if its in God's will for you to go first..." Through all of these expirences I had actually gotten disgusted with the church and left it for a while, but because of God I am back. It really buggs me when Christians use the excuse to hold one another accountable to judge other people. It makes it seam like someone needs to sort out their life before they are accepted by the Church or Christians which is not true! In fact becoming a Christian is a process as long as you are confessing your faith and are willing to learn for yourself and inturpret scriptures etc. Rob Bell made a few points on pg 144 we should remember:

1) The point isn't my failure; it is God's success in remaking me into the person he originally intended me to be.

2) Christians are people LEARNING who they are in Christ

3) When we see religious communities spending most of their time trying to convince people not to sin, we are seeing a community that has missed the point.

If the point is not sin then what is the point of being a Christian. Rob Bell suggests (and I agree) that the purpose of Christians is to bring heaven to earth. When we see poverty, famine, and other injustices on earth we refer to those as hell. As a Christian we are to be like Christ and to try to eliminate those from the earth. Heaven and Hell are not just where you go when you die but they are present realities! "This new kind of life in him is not about escaping this world but about making it a better place, here and now" (pg 148). One of the worst sins we can do as Christians is to not be generous. The man who was not generous is one of the few people in the Bible who it specifically mentions goes to Hell when he dies. What does that tell us? As Christians "the goal is not escaping this world but making this world the kind of place that God can come to" (pg 150). Whether or not you are a Christian, you already are who God created you to be. But how do we REALLY fully embrace this? "We can only find it when we give up the search, when we surrender, when we trust" (pg 151). We are exactly who we are supposed to be. We just need to surrender to God who we are and live our new life with him that he has already given us. We are already new in Christ, we just need to start believing it and living it... Not sin focused but by bringing heaven to earth through the simple things. It won't alays be easy, but it will deffinatly be worth it that we all may expirence that new life! :)


Movement Seven- GOOD

For Movement Seven to begin, let us start with how the Bible began when God created the earth. God created the Garden of Eden where the first original sin took place. There is an interesting connection here to the conquering of sin by Jesus. Jesus rose from the dead in a garden, was placed in a garden tomb, and after he rose when he saw his mother Mary weeping in the garden when his body was "missing" she mistakes him for the gardener. This is more than coincidence. There are a number of parallels between the old and new testaments that Rob Bell brings to our attention in the final movement of his book. In order for sin to be ended, God had sin overcome in the same way in entered the world (in a garden!!) Lets take a look back to the garden of Eden: When God created thje earth, he gave creation the power to grow and multiply telling Adam to care for it. Rob Bell argues because of this, litter and polution are spiritual issues (pg 158). When God created the Garden of Eden, it as GOOD... it was not perfect, but with its potential to develop it has the chance of becoming perfect. The early Christians spoke of God coming to earth at the end of time, not about us leaving to go someplace else. God claimed when Jesus would come there would be a renewal of all things, not just human souls. Creation moaned when sin entered the world because that was not how it was supposed to be! The return of Christ is to bring the whole picture back together as God intended it to be. In Revelation we have a picture of a city. If a garden is tended and cared for, Rob Bell tells us that it eventually becomes a city. Maybe we need to look back at bringing heaven to earth and seeing ho we can spread some love among all of Gods people. If you take all of the sin and death out of the Bible we are left with four chapters Genesis 1&2 and Revelations 21&22. A garden... and then a city... Another significant parallel.

The first Christians were counter-cultural. Paul was the first person in all of human history to state that all people were equal (male or female, slave or free). In Paul's day the idea of all people being seen as equal was revolutionary. Today we often say that all are equal, but the church I believe rarely acts that way. The church should take Pauls words and apply them to day. (homosexual or straight- clean or a stoner- prostitutes and virgins- Christians Athiests Muslims and everyone in between from all cultures). It is the duty of a Christian to love like Christ but so many we know do not, or if they love, they have an adgenda: all they really want is to convert someone... THAT IS NOT REALLY LOVE IS IT?!? More Christians are trying to persuade those who do not believe that the resurrection was real than anything else... could that be missing the point?!? OF COURSE!! The Early Christians you never found trying to persuade someone that the resurrection was real. There are of course a couple reasons for this: 1) Those who were around to expirence the resurection were all still alive and 2) Everyone back in the days of the early church claimed their God rose from the dead... even the ceasars and Ceasar Augustus!!

So what is the whole point of evangelism if we are not converting people? God chose each and every one of us to bless others. "It is our turn to rediscover the beautiful, dangerous, compelling idea that a group of people, surrendered to God and to eachother, really can change the world" (pg 164). God doesnt bless ony Christians, but he blesses Athiests, Muslims, Hindus... it does not matter. If God blessed only Christians... I do not believe many Christians would actually feel the need to be a Christian. God blesses everyone and so should we! If the church (which exhists to serve others) stops serving, it loses its heart... A church that does not serve has missed the mark. "Serving people is the only way their perceptions are ever going to change... it is so toxic for the Gospel when Christians picket and boycot and complain about how bad the world is. This behaviour doesn' help. It makes it worse" (pg. 166). Instead of pointing out there is a problem over and over why not take action? The point of understanding the Bible always has action as the goal remember? Why not serve those and fix how the world is bad rawther than complain all of the time about it!! If the Gospel is not good news for EVERYBODY than it is not good news for ANYBODY!! (pg. 167). "The most powerful things happen when the church surrenders its desire to convert people and convince them to join. It is when the church gives itself away in radical acts of service and compassion, expecting nothing in return, that the way of Jesus is most vividly on display... the church must stop thinking about everybody primarily in categories of in or out, saved or not, believer or nonbeliever... "God shows no favouritism." So We don't either... Christian community has sent the message that we love people and build relationships in order to convert them to the Christian faith. So there is an agenda. When there is an agenda it really isn't love is it? WE HAVE TO REDISCOVER LOVE, PERIOD. LOVE THAT LOVES BECAUSE IT IS WHAT JESUS TOLD US TO DO" (pg 167). Those who change the world do not need to draw attention to themselves. It can be simple and heart-felt. We can change the world by meeting peoples most basic needs... Like Rob Bell put "Jesus loves you, here's a toaster"... Its not like we have to do something even major that transforms a million lives... The lives of a few would still be changing the world. "Ultimately our gift to the world around us is hope. Not blind hope that pretends everything is fine and refuses to acknowledge how things are. But the kind of hope that comes from staring pain and suffering right in the eyes and refusing to believe that is all there is" (pg 170). We need to give this world not our "religion" but something real that they desperatly need.

"The church is like a double-edged sword. When it's good when it's on, when it's right, it's like nothing on earth. A group of people committed to selflessly serving and loving the world around them? Great. But when it's bad, all that potential gets turned the other way" (pg. 172). I have expirenced my fair share of what i believe to be the best of the best and the worst of the worst as far as churches and Christians go. What I ask you is what can be changed? To all of the Christians reading this, what can you do to better serve those around you without an agenda. No matter what we do, some people will just never CONVERT and we need to accept that. So love them anyway. If you are not a Christian, regardless of what your bleiefs are, what can the Church do in your opinon to serve you better, to serve the world better? To seam more compelling that it would not be looked upon by some with disgust?!? What could be done to better serve others, and what is getting in the way that can be stopped? It Is all something to think about no matter who you are.

I actually really enjoyed reading Velvet Elvis and I would reccommend it to anybody. It is a very simple read. If you enjoyed some of my points I made, you really should read the whole thing... If you did not like it, pick it up and read it to critisise thoroughly for yourself. After all God has spoken, the rest is just commentary!! :)

Sorry it took so long for me to post this, but as you can see by the length of the blog, it did take me a very long time to write it. I actually had to save drafts of this blog over a few days in order to actually finish it, but it was worth it. It was a really good book and has really helped me through many issues I have encountered with the church over the last few years. If you are in the same place as I was I can not urge you enough to pick up this book... It will really help you out :) After compleating this book I have officially marked off the first thing from my list of things I wanted to accomplish before returning to school. I hope to read a book every month this year and post a blog on it as well (some may be long and others may be short and I do not think they will ALL be Christian books). My book for February is called JESUS WANTS TO SAVE CHRISTIANS: A MANIFESTO OF THE CHURCH IN EXILE by Rob Bell. Stay tuned and I will hopefully have that blog posted at the end of February. I also hope to post tidbits of the different Bible studies I have done when I complete each study so stay tuned for my Stepping Up study by Beth Moore. I hope you enjoyed reading some of my thoughts on Velvet Elvis regardless of your religious beliefs. I hope you all have a good rest of your week.


Blessings,


RAYE

Monday, January 11, 2010

Lets Get On With It...

Well so far I have had one job interview... I need a job really bad and soon!! I have a lit of other places I can apply to if I can ever trust this computer to allow me to fill out the applications. I have had issues with my computer acting like a piece of shit for quite some time now. I can hardly wait til I can buy a MAC and stop dealing with all of this PC drama. I have found that several of the places that are hiring are not advertising that they are... But I am determined to find a job soon. It is quite easy to feel discouraged but you just have to press on sometimes I guess. I really hope the interview I had already will lead to a job though. I drove to Broadway Ave. and am I guess employed by this place called Apprentice Personel which is not exactly a real job... Basically it is a place you call everyday at 0545 to see if any work is available and if there is you work, and if not you are out of luck. Most of the people who are in the office are drug addicts who use the work to buy drugs and you can tell many of them live on the street. I know I can do better than this, so I am not really interested in sticking with this that long. I just hope I have a job really really REALLY soon!!

I have been thinking about things I would like to study in school someday as I have been in this position as well. I think it would be amazing to study dental assisting since I am only a matter of 12 weeks from compleation and $2,595 USD is all it will cost me to be certified. The school had various sites around Colorado so I could pick whatever works out the best for me.

Its hard not to think about the future even though I would really like to try to enjoy the present the best I can. I have had thoughts about going to Uni years down the road but I am never 100% certain what I would like to study. I have had thoughts of being a dentist someday (possibly for the NHS) but I do not know. I am doubtful I am even intelligent enough to be accepted to a dental school. And I would love to study Italian at Uni, I would just need a science to help be accepted to Dental school. I have always made A grades in science I just do not know if I am smart enough. It has been a while since I studied any of that.

Right now I just want a job, to enjoy my life and have lots of adventures. I have begun to go back to church at First Presbyterian Church in downtown and have met some people including Lilly-Ann, Jill, Ashlet, Kathie, Amy, and a number of others I can not remember all the names to. I would really start to work on a Bible study or a book study that I had on my list of things to do before returning to school. I am doing a Sunday School Class called "Saving Jesus from the Church" taught by Pastor Kathie with the church, but I have a list of books and studies I would like to do on my own still.

I have been working on putting my Christmas Cards together (I know it is late but it has been difficult with the whole moving process). I hope I have a job really soon so I can have an address to send them from. I would really like to expirence life in one place for a bit seeing as I moved house what was it FOUR times in 2009?!? Way too crazy for me anyway!! All the same, Chad and I have been talking about moving to Colorado sometime... I am pretty sure it will happen eventually, I just need to not worry about it. It will happen when it is supposed to.

Overall I am just not happy with this rut I am in just yet. I am ready to get on with it... I am ready to have a job and feel settled. If I am fortunate, hopefully I can be employed within a week. I have a lot to do it is simply NUTS!!! Just continuing to pray and trust that things will be okay... I am ready to be settled.

I have loads of errands to do today, including looking for work and dropping by my dentists office for inquiries... I need to know how costly an exam will be and a cleaning. Hopefully we can have that figured out soon!! :)

Thats all for now... Peace Out A-Town =P

--RAYE

Sunday, December 27, 2009

A New Beginning


I am honnestly looking forward to New Years 2010 more than any other New Year so far in my life. Every year seams to get more difficult and I enjoy it less and less. For those of you who do not already know, 2009 was a very difficult year for me. After leaving school at Toccoa in 2008 things have not quite been the same for me. I made a list of a few ideas on things I wanted to do instead of school, but never accomplished them. I ended up returning to school at Lyndon only to realise I hated that place more than ever. I have just recently dropped out of school again and moved to the midwest where my man Chad Collier lives. If one good thing happened this year it was meeting him. I met him in April, but it was not until late June that I was with him. 6 Months now hard to believe... I spent most of that time at Lyndon. I realised my studies at Lyndon were far from what I wanted to be doing. I very well may return to school one day, but at the moment I will continue doing what I am good at (being a dropout). At the moment I am in need to look for a job so I can establish myself, get my own apartment (currently at Chad's) and begin my life. I have made once again a list of countless things that I wish to do while not in school as well as a bucket list of things to do before I die. I am pretty adventerous so many of them are pretty crazy, but I intend to persue each one of them! I am excited for the new year... I am excited to start over and have a new beginning. I anticipate many adventures to come so keep chequing my blog for the latest posts on what I am up to. I will try to keep it up to date. As for tonight it is a quiet night here... Chad has the flu and I have been messing around on the computer with iTunes for the last few days. I did return to First Presbyterian Church this week. I went there last week and it was pretty nice. I met more people this week. It looks like there are lots of oppertunities to get involved and meet people. The church seams pretty good so far, the only drawback is having to drive across the city because it is downtown. I finally learned how to get there though :)


Well Thats all I have to say for now. I hope you all have a VERY Happy New Year 2010!!

Raye