Sacrifices! Pretty Much My Life Story!

Group at the Cropwalk!

My life is basically a series of being patient and making multiple sacrifices. Its horrible! Not only can I not get my computer when I planned (will take longer to post these than planned but who reads my blog anyway???) But also I have to give up my holiday! Other things? I have lost a LOT of friends this year... Many I guess I really don't care about, but some I thought were really good friends decided I did not matter to them anymore because of stupid issues. Its upsetting but I guess it really shows you who matters, and it makes me glad to have fake people out of my life. I don't need them. When I get married someday, maybe a small wedding is best, and I will only invite people who really matter.
I am also looking for a new job. I think it will be better for me, Chad, and everyone if I had one. Casey at work got fired, but Zach the mamager has already hired someone new so we won't be getting many extra hours. Pray to GOD I find something fast.
That's another thing I want to change! I want to grow spiritually and regain some happiness. I want to put more of my life into others and do some good. Much of this got inspired from seeing the film Jesus Camp which used to only make me mad. Some parts of the film still do make me mad, but it made me want to do better, and only with the help of God. The Cropwalk for Hunger is this Sunday with  the church! (Will add photo to this blog after)... Its a start! Please pray for good things!

RAYE

JULY SUCKS MONKEY BALLS!!!

All nine guinea pigs in their cage!

I can't stand July so far... This has been the worst month of the year! My hours at work were cut from 35 to 30 to 26 and I'm about to die! Pray that new job is here FAST! I applied to AT THE BEACH! for full time work and hope I get SOMETHING! I'm not the tannest in the world but am trying with the money I can to tan so I hope I get an interview and a job! That would help a LOT! In fact, a new job period would be a miracle...
I am also having problems with my bank (Bank of America) again and will close those accounts soon after the issues of cutting my credit line... Blocking me from $567 and then literally altering my account info costing me $56... I HAVE HAD ENOUGH! Just not worth it, so I should be going to Bank of The West soon!
My guinea pigs are also a problem. The only pet shop that will take them is the shop I got them from and they won't take Ginger so I need to find some place to neuter him, only I have no idea how to pay for it! It never ends!
Oh, and for some reason Verizon Wireless customer service is awful... What else? I still have a busted computer... So let's pray I get a new job ASAP! Then that the rest will work out! I am over desperate now... I need a miracle... Like NOW! I just do... That's all I can say.

RAYE

July so far = NOT my cup of tea!!

Let's just say it- So far my summer SUCKS! My computer is honestly a real piece of crap as I have handwritten blogs dated back to Sex God, unposted due to dead internet (now that you can see all these blogs I can finally post them all online- 23 December- but the dates on the blogs are all being posted as the orriginal dates I have written them). I can't wait to get a new job and buy my MAC! My hours are being cut due to Chad's "buddy" Ben (who I can't stand) and there is a long story with lots of drama I won't get into on here. I posted my resume to Chad's computer however, so I could apply for jobs there and I sent it to over 20+ places. I already got at least one rejection, but man am I praying for a better job fast! Pray with me! I am miserable at mine! June was so busy with everything that I am needing to get back at my Patriarchs study! I am reading "The God Who is There" by Francis A Schaeffer for July! I read "How Should We Then Live" by him in January 2007 as part of a Humanities class and it mentioned this book a lot, so I finally decided to read it! I have not been to a church in a while that I have really wanted to be a part of, so I am looking to re-trace my roots and go to an ELCA  Lutheran Church where I decided to be a Christian, and combine that with Messianic Jewish I love! I am re-learning more Hebrew (I used to know more than this). I hope to go to Remenant Israel (the Messianic Synogouge where I used to go to) Friday night, and try a Lutheran church Sunday if I wake up! I also want to re-start a prayer journal like I did in High School.
I have many errands I need to do, like get my oil changed ASAP (its been what 7 months now?!?) and figure out what to do with my continual guinea pig litters and find homes for the babies! Its WAY too many to keep! I'm also behind in writing friends letters! Wow!
Forth of July was boring! Chad & I went to Oklahoma at night but it was raining so we didn't get to set off fireworks on our way home... And we got home at 3AM so he didn't see the NEMO film like he said he would, but he saw it last night so I could stop whining & nagging... YAY! Haha! I knew it would only be a matter of time...
Well I have more errands to run. I will keep ya posted... PS, The picture on the blog is of a pretty sunset from last night :)

RAYE

Shit Hits The Fan

Things appear to be going well, but then as always, the shit hits the fan! I seam to have forgotten to calculate import taxes on items now & I owe a LOT of money I need to pay- Thus, unless I get a new job soon, I can not buy my new computer, iPod, OR go on holiday--- POOP! I got transfered to a different Taco Shop too where my hpours were cut by ten a week!! They are supposed to go up though soon!! I really hope I can pay bills this month, but I think my tax return will help a lot! I have a few leads on jobs that pay a LOT more than what I get now, so hoping and praying for one. In other news I finished my May book so I gotta try to blog on it AND Sex God (my book from April) coming up SOON!! At least I have the extra time from lack of work... :/

I have been spending that time off work working out like crazy though because the weather has been SO LUSH! The picture on this blog is from after a workout like 10 days ago or something... I Started to tan some and people are actually noticing my workout efforts: Walk a few miles a day, 150 crunches, protien shakes, I feel GREAT! I will hopefully update soon on my books & hopefully the sun stays so my tan does not die!! :)

Keep it Real, =P

RAYE

Tornado Season... Lovely

The weirdest thing happened yesterday! My county had two tornadoes! One began and passed my work right after I left like 15 to 20 minutes later. The other (small one) I drove past on my way home from work. It was storming so bad and the sky was so black it was hard to see the road! And all the lanes of traffic were packed. I had to lay on my horn when some idiots decided to try and cut me off to avoid wrecks. No pictures of it... Was too focused getting home without an auto crash!

The Picture is of my mother's day gift! I am not a mum, but I got it from some kids at FPC! It made me happy! It was my first mothers day gift ever!

I have been working to decourate home and have my bed built now! I just need to clean the awful mess off the floor... and sofa... and table... I have been working on reading my May book: "The Darkest England and the Way back In" by Gary Bishop, and also hope to finish the Living Free Bible study book before 1 June! My birthday is in JUST A MONTH!!! I really hope I can get myself a new ipod and MacBook Pro :). I am also looking for a new job! Preferibly a desk job for data entry where I don't have to deal with PEOPLE!! I love people, but the idiots I work with are another story... So I'm fine without people for a while! I'm getting SICK of my job! I hope for a new job soon! I also hope to meet girls my own age to hang out with! I need mates my own age here... It seams like I'm either usually alone or with Chad...

Doctors appointment Wednesday, Dentist Thursday, Optomatrist Friday! And keep looking out for my blog on "Sex God" by Rob Bell (my April book). I hope to catch up on those blogs by the end of this month too!! I gotta run... Peaceee =P

RAYE